Donya

      So thankfully my first day of dieting is done and over with. It actually wasn’t that bad. I thought it would be a lot harder. It probably was easy since I had tons of stuff to do and was busy for the majority of the day and in the evening which is my hardest time to not eat. I am on a diet were I cannot eat carbs after 4 pm which sucks!!. In the evening is when I wanna relax, watch tv, and just eat tons of carbs. Thankfully I had a night class to keep me away from food. Tomorrow is going to be hard since my class ends at 6pm which is when im going to want to come home and eat tons of carbs. I already baked some chicken so I might eat that even though i put shake and bake on it, which is all carbs. Im going to try and take all the shake and bake off.

        I officially made my apartment a weight loss zone. I have post its everywhere saying positive things like I can do it. There is a sign on my tv that says lose weight. I have a post it on my toilet paper roll holder. So everytime i use the bathroom i see it lol.  I want this time to be different. I want to stick to a program and get rid of this weight once and for all. Anyway it late ill talk to yall tomorrow.

So im trying this whole weight loss thing again. Why you might ask?….There are so many reasons but they are all the same as they were before. What makes this time different. I honestly have no idea. Everytime I try dieting it starts off so well and then i get discouraged or just annoyed that its just so much work to loose weight.

1. I want to finally go to the store and truly enjoy shopping cus the clothes fit me properly

2. I want to look how I used to look. I miss being in amazing shape and just being healthy.

3. I want to be happier. I think that this weight is partially why I am so unhappy.

4. I want to say that after all these years of trying to loose weight I finally succeeded. I am only 21 yrs old I should be able to wear a bikini and tight clothing without all my fat hanging over.

5. I just want to be able to have another priority in my life other then dieting.

Hopefully all of you will be able to help me reach my goal. I know this time I will finally succeed!

Hey to all of my buddies and anyone else reading this. So i have been on hiatus for the past 2 months. I somehow lost my way. But today is my first day of finally getting back on track and back in the game. I feel like loosing weight is like trying to win a game against yourself. You know all of the rules and know the exact moves that need to be made for you to win the game but for some reason you don’t make the right moves in order to win the entire game. So my family is going on a cruise on Oct. 10th so right now that is what is motivating me. Also my 22nd birthday is in November 26th and I would love to reach my entire goal then. And i know a lot of people who are trying to loose weight and I am always giving them advice but i need to stop preaching things that I do not even practice myself u know. So right now I am just counting calories and workout wise im doing Jillian Michaels workout and I might get a trainer but im not sure yet. I have had one before and their was nothing wrong with him. I really liked it. The only problem i have with dieting is the food. I could work out every single day for 5 hours straight if thats what it would take for me to loose weight. But no that is not my problem cause i love the gym the problem is my eating. I LOVE TO EAT. I eat when im bored, when im tired, and especially when im happy sad and stressed. I need to find a new outlit for my feelings besides food. Im always making excuses but im done. This is my new beginning lol. I know the journey will be long and hard but im willing to do it. And i know with u guys help i will succeed!!!!

So, as I wrote on Monday I finally reached my mini goal which was to get under 200lbs. I was so happy because I had worked so hard. But it seems this week I have been munching in between meals and not tracking it in. All these little extra are going to add up. I think because I’m not trying to reach a huge goal this week I am not dieting as well as I should be. I have been keeping up at the gym which is good but as far as food goes I keep munching on extras. I am not sure what to do to stop myself. I have put fat pictures of myself upnext to my goal sheet which is also my vision board which has picks of the body I want and the weight I want to be. I even put a post it on my computer which says goals for April 1st which is do not go over 1400 calories and go to the gym.Well the first goal was reached! Anyway….got any ideas?

    Hey guys, so I had my weigh in today and I weighed 199.6!!! I lost a total of 5.2 lbs on my new diet. I am sooooo happy!!! I am finally under 200lbs!!! That was my main goal for this week!! I knew it was far fetched but I really wanted to be under 200lbs because I have been working crazy hard and every time I would come so close but not under 200lbs. So I am happy with this new diet. It seems to be working. I am hoping that next week I loose a total of 3lbs. I know that is a lot to loose in one week but I really hope I do. After next weigh in I will be happy with only loosing 2lbs a week. Or at least I will try and be happy with only losing 2lbs a week. Guys hard work really does pay off. O and guess what my total weight loss is to date. 30lbs!!!!!! Now only 50 more lbs lol. I know I am going to do it this time. Everytime I start a new diet I am always saying how this will be the time I actually stick to a diet. But I am serious this time. I am soooooo happy!!! Finally riched my mini goal!! YAY!!! Everyone have a wonderful monday!!!

Alright everyone, so I had my graduate school interview today and I was nervous. This is the only school I applied to and they only take 20 people out of probably 100 applicants. I’m so nervous, I hope I get in since my life depends on it. So everyone please pray and cross your fingers for me. Anyway so far, so good for this week I have really stayed on point. I have not gone over in calories except for yesterday I went over by about 40 calories but than I burned an extra 100 calories on the elliptical. I finally get a day off from the gym today which makes me happy, because I love the gym but I don’t want to get sick of the gym, u kno. I cannot wait until Sunday, which is my weigh in day. I know I shouldn’t base my success by what the scale says but I really want a good week because i have changed my diet and worked really hard. I hope the universe is listening when I say I deserve to loose tons of weight this week!

I don’t kno about all of u but I have had almost everyone I know tell me in order loose weight I need to do as much cardio as possible but I have been reading the book by Jillian Michaels, the trainer from the biggest loser (the best show ever). And she advices doing weight training 4 days a week alternating between different parts of the body and only one day of the week of 1 hr of straight cardio. So today was the first time I tried her workout and omg I burned 500 calories in 55 minutes just weight training. My goal is to burn 600 calories a day, so all i needed was another 8 minutes of cardio and I was done and it was so much better than running on the treadmill and doing the elliptical for an hour. I mean yes it was hard and i am really tired now but it is so worth it. Also I heard that when u are done with cardio u stop burning calories but with weight lifting ur muscles continue to burn calories. So if u wanna change up ur plan and stop with the contiuous cardio day in and day out by Jillians book its really good!!

So i have always had the huge problem of weighing myself every single day and this can have three different effects on me.

1. I loose weight and then im happy and decide to go to the gym which sometimes happens

2. I gain weight and decide to not to go to the gym and binge eat or just end my diet and eat junk food, this often happens

3. I am at the same weight and decide to not go to the gym  and eat junk food….this one occurs most often.

I know this is all crazy but it is just something I do. So today i made a conscious effort to overcome this problem. I gave my suitmate my scale and told her to keep it in her room and not to give it back until i was my weigh in day. Because I cannot control myself. I think this is a big step in the right direction. Also im determined to be happy with 2lbs weight loss a week even though I wish I could loose much more a week I must be satisfied with only 2lbs. Its just cause I have so muchweight to loose and I just want to be thin already. So I’m going to focus on mini goals and my first mini goal is to reach 199. I seriously haven’t seen that number in far to long. I just want to say by to the 200’s forever.

So it was that time of the month and i ending up gaining 2 lbs. I worked out extra hard this week because I new it was that time of the month. So therefore I got extremely frustrated and decided to just completely end my diet. But I have now decided to try a new diet which is just a jump around diet of 1400 cals for two day straight and then the third day 1800 calories and then the next two days 1400 cals. My personal trainer recommended.  I hope this works. I am actually not going to looks at the scale for an entire week. O did i mention I have a problem where I look at the scale just about every morning and if I haven’t lost weight I get so mad. I know its not healthy and I shouldn’t expect to see change so quickly but I am such an impatient person. Im hoping to get under the 200lbs this week. I know this is crazy since i weight 204.8 right now. But since im starting a new diet and im going to hit the gym just about everyday this week I think it is possible. I seriously will not be happy until I see 19 something on that stupid scale. So wish me luck this is going to be a ruff week.

So today is turning into one of those days in which I didn’t want to get out of bed or go to the gym and I’m just so tired of working out everyday and the weight just isn’t coming off fast enough. I am running out of different ways to do cardio. I usually run and do the elliptical but even both of those are boring me. I just wish the weight would come off faster. I had to make myself get up and go to the gym this morning. I just completely did not want to go and it doesn’t help that it is raining outside and the sun is not going to come out. I know why I am doing this but at the same time I’m tired and its annoying how all my friends can eat whatever they want and they never go to the gym. Meanwhile im at the gym kicking my ass trying to loose this weight. IDK its just one of those days I guess. Can’t be happy everyday.Lets just hope that this weigh in on Saturday is good.

-D-